Friday, February 09, 2018

I scarcely believe it myself

To my shame I could not immediately remember her name, that blogger in the US who died.......last year......year before? Then it came to me, Jacqueline. I still feel sad. Ah well, what to do. Miss her but move on.

Right, time to get stuck into Yahoo Mail, which is most deleting things unread at five different Yahoo accounts, all easy to do on the phone without having to log in and log out. Mucho  deletion. Finger slipped and the email list went back in date to 2016. Wow, that is funny. Here I was earlier thinking about Jacqueline and blow me down, here is an old email from her in 2016. It was very private and personal and detailed the circumstances of her leaving Idaho for Florida. I reread the long email.

How long is it actually since she died? I entered Jacqueline into my blog search box. The first post that came up was when she suffered the stroke, the second, when she died. So what was the date? Ah, 9th of February, 2017. I looked up and the wall clock but as the date on the clock is American format, it did not really register, that is 2/9. Translated, 9/2.

I was then distracted by a phone. Now, where was I? Ah yes, the dates. As realisation dawned on me, my flesh crawled and contracted and I could feel my head being squeezed by my skin.

Why of all days would I think of Jacqueline on the first anniversary of her death, especially to the point of looking it up?

I don't believe in spooks or the supernatural or anything like that, so all I can say is that it is a extraordinary coincidence. I expect I will spend the afternoon trying to rationalise this and I certainly wouldn't blame anyone for being doubtful about what happened. I would be myself.

Jac, you are not really there sending me signals, are you? Am I too cynical?

28 comments:

  1. It doesn't matter when she cross over. But with kind people like you Andrew her spirit will live on.
    Coffee is on

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    1. Thanks Dora. Very kind of you.

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  2. It's strange how people who have meant something to us in life, pop up so unexpectedly in death. She knows you cared. Hugs...RO

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    1. RO, one of her best qualities was that she did not complain. I do complain, frequently and often.

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    2. You may see your responses as complaints, but I see them as a way to show how you're feeling at any given moment. I also learn quite a bit here, which I appreciate. I like that you dare to be different - very cool. Hugs...RO

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  3. I was looking over your sidebar, and don't know why I never noticed before, but the set-up and titles are pretty cool. Hugs...RO

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    1. Thanks. The list of VIPS has just been slightly altered.

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    3. RESTING, DEAD OR INFREQUENTLY UPDATED BLOGS really grabbed my attention. (lol) Was thrilled to see quite a few of the bloggers I connect with on your site on the VIP list. Oh my goodness, I just noticed that I made it to the VIP list!!!!!! Yay! Thanks again! I removed the other post because I forgot some stuff. Sorry. Hugs..

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  4. That sure was a spooky coincidence.

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    1. Diane, I don't believe it was really. There must have been something that triggered it. Something I saw without noticing, I reckon, but it was planted in my head.

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  5. I remember well an Aussie blogger called JohnD who, when he knew his days were numbered, wrote a goodbye page telling us that he'd asked his daughter to inform us of his death. She never did.

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    1. Cro, I am sure it was a very moving page too. How uncaring of his daughter to not follow his wishes. I have taken measures to ensure that does not personally happen. I have an app that tells you if I don't post for five days, unless I am holidays, I am dead. Kidding.

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  6. Possibly this happened so that you can remind us of this anniversary, so we will all give a thought to Jacqueline. I'm very sorry to admit that I had forgotten her and I feel bad about that now.

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    1. River, she had entered my thoughts every so often, but I did temporarily forget her name. I think my persistence in keeping a list of people who no longer blog for whatever reason is a good idea. Some of the links no longer work, but the name of the blog reminds me.

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  7. What a coincidence that you thought of your blogger friend exactly a year after her death. May she rest in peace.

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    1. Sami, I am sure she is.

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  8. Probably just coincidence Andrew.. still, it makes you think!

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  9. That is strange Andrew. Maybe our internal clocks are stronger than we think and the date itself triggered your memory.

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    1. For a million dollars, Strayer, I could not even with certainty tell you whether it was 2016 or 2017, let alone the date. It will remain a mystery, I think.

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  10. She was saying "Hello from the other side"

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    1. And you'll have to shift Our Great Southern Land again as it's updated daily again ;)

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    2. Jayne, yes, trying to do my head in, more like.

      Sorry, and OGSL should not even be there, but under The Old, the new and the marvellous.

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  11. Just a quick hello never killed anyone.

    Oh... :-)

    Greetings from London.

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    1. Thanks Cuban. I disagree. I nearly died.

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  12. Who knows? These things do happen....

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    1. Lee, I will leave it as unexplained.

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