Note the bit about me being overly cautious, not sure where that came from, but perhaps it is correct.
I got a question..
As you got out of your 20's and on in years how did you mentally deal with ageing?
I mean for example how did you sort of come to terms that you won't be what "gay society" likes in a youth orientated culture?
I mean now I look thru DNA and see these f***ing twinks in their early-mid 20's and think...f*** that's amazing.
Yes, through plastic surgery (as you know i had a temple lift, dermal fillers and i'm getting an endoscopic mid face lift done soon to lift my cheeks back to 19 again), I've managed to stave off the years probably so I pass for early to mid 20's.
I still get my ID checked at clubs sometimes, but it's getting more and more difficult for me to maintain this illusion and one day I'm going to be past it and feel like I'm on the scrap heap and it's driving me nuts. I almost feel terminally ill.
I guess I don't know that many guys who I can talk to you like I can talk to you.
You seem to understand me a bit better.
I mean you're very overly cautious about things...as you are with everything which is just how you are but you always manage to put things in a way that makes sense to me.
I don't know if this has come out the right way actually, I hope it hasnt' offended.
I mean I'm just looking for some pointers basically.
Hope I'm not overstepping the mark by asking.